So. In the spirit of new beginnings? This one is mine. If you'd like to see the earlier chapters, with all of their vast gulfs and changes and musings and lack of consequence, you can find them at http://standingdragon.livejournal.com.
Now that that's out of the way, let's try a real post, shall we?
Halloween has always been one of my favorite holidays. This year is absolutely no exception - fall is in the air, I've found my stalker-coat (an ancient moleskein longcoat), the leaves are turning and, like every autumn, there is an air of new beginnings. Fresh starts. I think it goes back to "Back to School", which was always my favorite part of childhood. New school supplies, blank notebooks, the promise of learning something new.. it always made me. Well. Happy.
Perhaps it's fitting that this fall is what it is:
A learning experience.
There's so much I want to say, so much about which I want to muse and comment... but I can't. Not yet, not and be fair. Weblogs are by no means truly private spaces, and I cannot yet claim a life that is my own, and a shape that is wholly ... selfish.
In other words, I am not yet ready to declare sides, to choose heroes and villains, or - even - to face what may or may not happen down the way.
I will, however.
For now? This weekend is my first LARP in three years, and I admit to being nervous. I'm fatter, I'm a little less smiling, and ... I wonder if the person I am now will be acceptable to those I have long cared about.
We shall see! Floon is high.